My first public speaking event was during the lockdowns. The online format seemed easier and made me want to give it a try. In the weeks before the event, every day I woke up stressing out about the talk. But until the event started, I had no idea how it feels to sit in an empty room, talking to your face on the screen, having over a hundred strangers listening.

To keep the momentum, I did another one in a couple of months. And then when a company reached out, I said yes to running webinars and online classes regularly.

Around ten events into it, I was still feeling the same — stressing out all day before each class. And then when these feelings suddenly stopped, my motivation also plummeted. Without the stress, I just didn't look forward to going through the same topics again. Now I have a theory that people with stage fright make the best presenters. They obsess over the quality of their stuff, worrying about what everyone will think.

Last winter I also did one live event. Someone invited me to speak at their meetup. I put tens of hours into preparation and it went well. I sent the same topic to two conferences but got rejected both times. Not sure how it works.

Two years ago, I was feeling dizzy and mixing words one hour into teaching a class. Now, after twice as long, I'm not even that tired. As a rather quiet person, I also find myself talking more during dinners and walks. When I start explaining my ideas, I'm not rushing to finish after two sentences.

My first public speaking event was during the lockdowns. The online format seemed easier and made me want to give it a try. In the weeks before the event, every day I woke up stressing out about the talk. But until the event started, I had no idea how it feels to sit in an empty room, talking to your face on the screen, having over a hundred strangers listening.

To keep the momentum, I did another one in a couple of months. And then when a company reached out, I said yes to running webinars and online classes regularly.

Around ten events into it, I was still feeling the same — stressing out all day before each class. And then when these feelings suddenly stopped, my motivation also plummeted. Without the stress, I just didn't look forward to going through the same topics again. Now I have a theory that people with stage fright make the best presenters. They obsess over the quality of their stuff, worrying about what everyone will think.

Last winter I also did one live event. Someone invited me to speak at their meetup. I put tens of hours into preparation and it went well. I sent the same topic to two conferences but got rejected both times. Not sure how it works.

Two years ago, I was feeling dizzy and mixing words one hour into teaching a class. Now, after twice as long, I'm not even that tired. As a rather quiet person, I also find myself talking more during dinners and walks. When I start explaining my ideas, I'm not rushing to finish after two sentences.